I’ve been through treatment once before and was told from the start do not talk about sexual abuse if it involved someone you love they it’ll have to be reported. I felt a lot of guilt, shame and disgust associated with it and like our family dynamic keep it swept under the rug. going through Ken Sealey’s treatment and sober living helped me build a new routine, accountability, self-care just some of the things I don’t care when in active addiction. doing the trauma egg changed my life I felt I was in a safe environment which for me was crucial to open up and I was able to see what my behaviors and patterns after those incidents shaped how I am today and how I can change. I wasn’t in contact with my family from 2013 until 2019 no communication whatsoever due fear always making choices for me. I now see I freeze in situations when I don’t feel safe not only physically but emotionally, I will shut down, isolate, push people away that’s what’s comfortable but now I’m working on changing that. going through this treatment I’ve built some amazing relationships that have been crucial to my recovery these people are a part of my day to day life. today I have almost 18 months clean and I have a relationship with my family we talk almost daily, I have an amazing relationship with a man who helps bring out the best in me we work on ourselves as individuals so we can grow as a couple, I have some friendships that I have always wanted my entire life because of this program but I had to do the work and still do; some days are harder than others but I will never forget living in an apartment not showering for months, buying new clothes cause I couldn’t take the time to wash the ones I had, burn marks up and down my legs from cig burns, missing chunks of hair from falling asleep on a lit cig. the hardest part of it all for me was the detox cause I was done putting drugs in my body I just couldn’t stop on my own and so I was willing to do all they asked now I wasn’t perfect by any means I broke a few rules but I was also ready to deal with the consequences and I did it clean but I did the work to get where I am today and proud of it. there were days when I didn’t believe much of myself and I can clearly remember a staff member who’s still works there he would cheer me on telling me I wasn’t alone even if my family and I didn’t talk family doesn’t have to be blood. I know I wouldn’t be where I’m at today if I hadn’t done my trauma egg that was a life changer for me!!
Being a KSC client gave me a new life. Being able to go to group everyday really gave my structure and to be able to be around staff that truly care and understand made a huge difference. I loved being a client KSC. Everyone made me feel special and felt like they always cared for me. Doing my trauma egg was a HUGE breakthrough in my recovery. I uncovered things I never even knew were there or bothered me. Opening about certain things really gave me the ability to take them head on and get through them, and not just alone but with my fellow peers. It was very therapeutic and made everyone in the group that much closer. i know have 1 year and 6 months clean and couldn’t have done it without KSC.